I want to share with you about my story today.
I believe in total transparency, because everything that we have experienced in life has brought us to where we are today. I want to you see what is possible, and how things can turn around.
So that you can see that I come from a life of struggle and turned it all around into something amazing.
So that you can see that you can take your circumstances – no matter what they may be – and put it all together to create the life you were meant to live.
My life started out like any other “good” life…
I enjoyed having two parents and a fun little life that included nursery school, spending time with my parents, and playing friends.
It all got off to a really promising start. And one day. One moment changed it all.
We didn’t even see the car ...… but we sure felt the crash.
It was a crash that would replay throughout my life for years to come.
My mother was driving the car that day. I was in the back seat chatting away about my day at nursery school. Just like any other day, we were enjoying each other’s company and talking about what we were going to do when we got home.
Then it happened.
A car came out of nowhere and made a left turn across traffic.
Mom didn’t even have time to react.
I was thrown into the back of the headrest on the front seat and my mother’s neck snapped back, causing severe whiplash that would alter the course of our lives.
The other driver? His car was demolished and he was paralyzed.
It was devastating and terrifying.
But, it didn't end there.
The years passed on with many lawyers and in and out of court. It was so hard on my mother and she just couldn’t cope anymore.
The loving woman I one knew became mentally ill and incapable of being the mother that I desperately needed.
And my father? Well he struggled with having to send mom away each summer for her mental health and hid it for me for years until I was 13 years old.
The truth came out and I found out while I was away at summer camp or grandma’s house my mom was in a hospital. Now my dad felt I was old enough to make the decision with him.
At only 13, I was supposed to have a hand in my mother’s medical care.
I was confused and overwhelmed and I had no idea what to do or where to turn. How could I send her away year after year?
I struggled to make it work with my dad until I was 16 years old. My parents divorced and I found myself solely responsible for my mother.
Meanwhile, my father was busy starting his life over and daddy’s little girl soon found herself more alone than ever. Our relationship was very damaged and from this point forward I no longer had a father figure in my life. I struggled with the feelings of abandonment, rage and resentment until I finally accepted life for what it was.
I left home at 17, but did finish high school thanks to the help of a close friend. My mother continued to try to love me the best that she could, but I longed for a strong, maternal figure in my life.
I struggled with my story for years.
There was a lot of confusion, resentment, and regret that
I had to work through, to get where I am today.
Through that, I realized that I have always been “ahead of the game.” My peers were doing normal 20-something things like hanging out with friends, partying, and finding who they were while I was developing into a responsible adult.
I developed a “sixth sense” for knowing just the right thing to do and learned to trust my own inner voice and intuition to guide my life.
I was successful at every job I had. Quickly promoted, checking off each goal as it came. No task was too much for me – I was able to do it all.
My friends looked at this like an amazing skill set that I had – motivation, ambition, strength, and drive.
But to me? ....
To me, it was just survival.
My life continued with a stable career and great friends, but I was still missing something. I was missing that family connection. I accepted that I wouldn’t have that and built other meaningful relationships in my life.I accepted friends as family as was welcomed into their home the same.
Throughout this, my passion for people came alive.
I wanted everyone to succeed and be happy. My inner fight became making the world a better, forgiving place, even if it was only one act of kindness, or one person at a time.
In searching for my purpose and how I would live my passion and fit into this world, I was introduced to coaching at The Open Center in New York City.
This was my “ah-ha” moment.
I finally found what I was meant to do with my life and how I could make an impact on others.
This was the missing piece for me, that helped me to make sense of my pain and my struggles. I learn to take my life's pain points and turn it into life's lessons. I gained the understanding and knowledge to embrace the deepest parts of my life, as they are the gifts I was meant to share with others.
Without them - who would I be today?
And that’s why you’re here today reading all about me.
I hope that we will work together soon so that you can create the life that you were always meant to live.
But I want to leave you with this one thought:
We all have the ability in us, sometimes we just need to be reminded.
If you are ready to begin your journey towards emotional freedom and the life that you desire deeply in your soul, schedule a call below and let’s see if coaching is right for you.
With love,
Amanda